Why Now?

My Why

Why lose weight now? Why change my lifestyle now? I suppose the truest reason is I don’t feel like the woman who stares back at me in the mirror. I want to have more energy for life, for love, for my future kids, for my demanding job, to keep up with my younger, thinner husband and to accomplish new activities. I want to feel comfortable in a subway seat, or the crowded Long Island Railroad. I want to feel good naked. I want to wear whatever I please without feeling too fat for this outfit. I want walk up the stairs at work without needing to stop at the landing to catch my breath. I want to feel more rested. I want a single chin in pictures. I want to see my collar bones again. I want to wear a single digit dress size. I want to shop in New York and Company again. I want wear high heels again. I want to have boots that fit my calf. I want to buy bras from a non specialty bra store. I want to be able to run a 5K. I want to learn to jump rope, swim and ride a bike. I want be more physically active. I want to increase my mental strength. I want to keep my sugar levels in a normal range. I want to have a healthy heart. I want to no longer have sleep apnea. I want to be stronger. I want to gain muscle. I want to eat tasty and healthy meals. I want to learn to relax without food. I want to be to plank, do yoga poses, see my feet and be proud of my reflection all the time. I want to have the optimal body to get pregnant without any complications due to being overweight. I want to learn to live an active healthy lifestyle. I want to get at least 60,000 steps in a week. I want to be able to dance all night again. I want to walk around the city without getting tired. I want to run for a train without being winded. I want to find other satisfying activities that have nothing to do with eating. I want to feel sexier and more confident. Mostly I want my outside to match the person I am inside. I will believe in myself this time even when it gets hard I will keep going because this is just for today but it is forever. This is my new beginning to be healthy, happy and a hottie.