I should say sorry to my readers and viewers for disappearing once again. I am thankful and truly humbled for anyone who is reading this and willing to continue on this journey with me. Since my last post … life went all the way left. There is so much craziness in the world these days. Definitely craziness and chaos in my life as well. First I had to end the school year in tele-therapy just as I was finally getting the hang of it, then it was my birthday, my husband’s birthday and countless other family and friends birthdays. Honestly I wasn’t in the mood for counting calories or points or tracking. I really felt I couldn’t come on an post the true things I was doing which were being extra sedentary and snacking at all hours. However, eventually you have to pay the piper. My readers and viewers are smart so the truth is a stopped my agreement of posting new content because I didn’t want to have to own behavior and take accountability of my choices. The ridiculous and ironic truth is regardless of posting this blog or uploading a new YouTube, I was in a state of shutdown. I was not motivated to do much definitely not the exercises I had promised you and myself. With the world still dealing with COVID-19 I wasn’t in the mood to even go to the grocery stores that have foods I have always found successful in my weight loss journey. Lastly, I have been struggling with outdoor exercise or going outside at all wearing a mask. I especially have found it difficult to breath while walking and exercising in my mask. I have asthma I am not sure it that is the reason why, if I am breathing incorrectly under the masks, or if I am just out breath from being out of shape and the mask doesn’t aid in this instance. However, I still would rather be winded than dead so I have been keeping my mask on and social distancing. I actually through a zoom game night party for my birthday. While all these are true facts I think the biggest contributor to my almost 10 pound weight gain since my last virtual weigh in can be boiled to three cccs; celebrating with food, cookies, and cocktails.

I had cake for breakfast a few times in the past three weeks since my work school year ended and my summer vacation began. I ate late night cookies fresh baked and since NY is almost open I was able to order take out from some of my previous favorites. In truth I might have keep on going on this way but when I go on the scale today I really couldn’t believe what 3 weeks of no accountability and no planning did to my body. I was eating items that I don’t even like that much. I was sicken, shook and embarrassed by the number on the scale. I am happy in the sense that I finally owned it. I put it in my WW weigh chart and let it go. I needed to see it. I needed to own it.

Owning it is hard for me I like to look at all things through rose colored glasses and see the bright side. However this behavior is no longer serving me when it comes to my health and weight. It is frustrating to have the knowledge but not apply it. I think I have to go back to basics. I am going to need to start with the tracking. I am not sure if it because I was so irritated with the number on the scale today but for a change in my life I just ate what tracked and that’s it. I think the fact that my mom when back on WW has helped too. She is my best friend and definitely the person I spend the most time with in quarantine and we both were eating like it was the holidays everyday. She went back on WW this past Tuesday. I still ate and partied some more until yesterday which was Sunday and is my weigh in day. Aside from my own blog and YouTube channel, I help my mom with her YouTube channel which so happens to be all about cooking. Although everything is delicious. It isn’t always the most diet friendly meals which was so bad when we were actually going to work and people would come over and take some of this food home with them. We don’t have guess and my mom is cooking the same amount as before COVID 19 so of course we’ve been eating it all.

My mom decided to do the WW green plan which forces you to count all food as points except for fruits and non-starchy vegetables for 30 points. I was on the WW blue plan which allows you to have a lot more zero point food such as eggs, chicken breast, turkey breast, beans, legumes, fish, shellfish, and non fat plain Greek yogurt for 23 points. At times I do the point value for my mom’s cooking show. Yesterday when she was making Sunday dinner it just hit me that we need to be on the same plan. It just easier. On Blue Corn is a zero point food but on green it is 3 points. I tried to convince my mom to just do blue with me so she could eat more track less. However she made a good point about if you are eating too many zero point foods or too big of a portion of zero point foods you are still not going to lose weight. It was in that instance that I realized aside from my obvious indulgences, I was over indulging in my zero point foods. She’s usually right by the way. I decided to switch to green for at least the next two weeks and see what happens. I will post an update even if it’s that I didn’t follow through. I need to be committed and accountable. All I know is I need to commit to myself and my journey. I appreciate your reading this and I will not be upset if you hold me accountable for not posting or updating. Here’s to the journey.

Love, Light and Peace,

Sims